It happens from time to time....I remember that I am a grown up! And I have to admit it makes me laugh.
Last night, Hubby and I were saying goodnight to Little Miss 4 and I was looking at both of them and it struck me again - I am a grown up, this wonderful man is my husband and this amazing little girl is our daughter!
That is right, you heard me - I am married and have a daughter, who is 4 years old! Not only that, I have Bubs#2 on the way, a house with a mortgage, and a career. Things I thought only grown ups had, like my parents!
Sometimes I wonder - when did I become a grown up?
When people ask me how old I am, I often say the wrong age, not because I am embarrassed about my age or anything, just because I literally forget. I forget that really 10 years have passed since I was 25. After a minute, I correct myself - the look of bewilderment on the face of the person that I have just told I am 25 normally jolts me into remembering that in fact I am 35.
Each year on my birthday I ask my parents, "How does it feel to have xx year old children?", (I have a twin brother) to which they both just laugh. As I get older I think they probably want to hit me every time I ask them, as this is their revelation day that they have two grown up children and a granddaughter.
Growing up my Dad used to tell me not to be in such a hurry to grow up that as you get older time passes faster. Being the usual teenager I didn't listen....until now. Time does pass faster as you get older.
It seems like yesterday I was leaving high school, getting my first job, my first car, my independence, thinking I was a grown up and being far from it. I seem to have blinked and here I am a real grown up with real responsibilities.
Along the path to becoming a grown up I have learnt some very valuable lessons that I am sure have moulded me into me. Lessons I wouldn't change. I believe in having no regrets and that everything that has happened to me to get to "grown up status" has taught me something important.
So I guess for today I realise I am a grown up and will be thinking about the journey I have taken to get here.....until tomorrow when I have forgotten again.
Have you had any revelations lately?
I can totally relate to this. Often I will be running around doing errands and it will hit me. "I am a grown up and these children following me are mine". I really is quite a mixed feeling sometimes.
ReplyDeleteMe too! And then I think of my friends from high school, who I still see, and wonder if they all thought they would be doing whatever they are doing at this stage.
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